i got a game for you baby

What do you call the sweetest addiction so good that it becomes the biggest sin?
A doubled sided blade so sharp that the merge touch of it could cause you to bleed to death
No one knows of the truth and no one speaks anything else
A secret can be kept if out of the three men who hear it two of them are deaf.
Only being able to go off what the third man shows them, so they know no better and he fears the worst.
It’s a dangerous game and the player only becomes more and more daring and forgetting of steps and procedures.
But something has changed the players are moving around closer and closer to each other, and the main player fears disqualification.
The first victim was naive and willing become as times went on the naïve just became ignoring and tiresome.
Fear of losing or being out played caused jealousy and pain, so after a long round of play the ties start to weaken.
So the second player takes the ring and with such force that it was never seen before. Passion, determination, so much sex appeal, a fun and friendly face, and a mind numbing embrace and hushed words spoken in secret or seclusion
The heat created when together made enough heat to cook enchilidas and a large bowl of queso. It was intense and unforgiving it seemed to last forever until it stopped.
And now player one has become the new main player and we’re trying to make him work but, there’s only so many times you can heat things up in the microwave before they start to make you sick or not make them anymore
And I no longer wonder if I’m a good person I know the answer to that question AM NOT.
If player two hadn’t decided to leave the game with both players would still be going on, with me having the job of balancing man and secret keeper.
I’m doing pretty good, because this game has been going on since the summer of 07 and now it’s the summer of 08, I wonder if I’ll make it to the summer of 09.
But in reality I really just want the summer of 07 back.

Cheating

I think that chetaing is a two way road and that the girl doing it isn't entirely at fault. Don't get me wrong cheating is wrong and you should try your hardest to never do it or get caught up in it but it happens. And the reasons i believe it does is because of a lack of affection, emotion, appeal, and security. Most girls once committed or in a realationship at times lean on their boyfriends for emotional and physical support. By asking them do they look fat in these jeans, should they dye their hair, should they wear the flats or the heels? Are all questions for them they want to know so that they can look good and feel good about themselves but to also know they you think they do too. So when they don't do this or doesn't show them enough attention or any at all they will go wondering to find someone who will. I understand that things come up and you can't call and or text her for a day that's fine but when it goes on for days, that's when it has become a problem. And even with help trying to fix it it doesn't change then yes hse will leave or go to someone else. Who will show her affection say how beautiful she looks today or how they can't wait totalkto them or see them tonight. Things like that will keep a girl close and learn not to stray. But don't atke my advice on it i'm not a professional just a friends who's seen alot of break up and sneaking around gone down before her very eyes.

Terrorist or Freedom Fighters

The difference between being a terrorist or a freedom fighter depends on whoes side your own. And how much media coverage you will have or are accessible to,because take the founding father's as an exsample. To all the lords and citizens of Great Britian they were thought to be terrorist and troubling making colonist. That theyr were unappricative of what their King had done for them by helping to make them their own country/colony/state providence. They see them as ungreatful outsiders who needed help they gave it ti them and now they wanted them gone, without paying them back for all the hard work they had put into their land. Eventhou Great Britian would tax the heck out of the colonies still they felt like they were owed something more. So the Americans grouped together and made an alliance of freedom fighters or rebels to try and over throw Britian's rule in American. Because they were trying to grow as a counrty and not need their help anymore. But that was not how it was preceived so Britian sent in troops to keep the Americans rebels at bay until they could be contained and controlled. But they still found time and locations to meet up in secret to try and organized to get their plans for freedom and indepence underway. Until they launched the first attack on them with their tea, and then the hair started to fly
This is pretty much the same as with the United States and Iraq, all we Americans see is how we have been helping Iraq for years and now all of a sudden for them to attack us and want us out of their country. I guess people feel betrayed but who are we to talke when we had and would have done the same thing if we were still in their position during this war. Iraq's become the new American rebels and we are now Great big bad Britian, oh how the tables have turned.

Olympic Torch

The Olympic torch going through China while they still are prosecuting Tibet and keeping them prisoner. Is like the second spin of the merry go round or a remix to a old song of oppession and dictatorship. But it's werid because the Olympic torch is suppose to symbolize the "endeavor for protection and struggle for victory.", so while our it's games held in hell now. Oh how fall we human beings has fallen from the golden era os the Greek Olympics, but even in those days their was a monarchy. So there's not much room to talk or walk with now huh, the Olympics are made to seem like its a great showing of althlitic falir all over the world. And a showing of team spirit and showmen ship, fairness, and diversity. I wonder where that came from with all the,negativity evilness and down right jealousity that stays at bay at these olympic hosting grounds. Berlin went as far as to kick star allthics out of their country because they were Jewish or some part. But when the games came around not to look mean or unreasonable they kept a poster child in the games for their team, who won a silver medal.
But i guess if you really wany or need to be optimitic you can say that the symbol of the torch changes people even if it's just for a couple of hours to days to fake basic humna kindness and sportmenship. For the camera and the rest of the world to see these torn countries and nations will put of a front of equality and peace for the sake of the games. And how they will look to their future and present suppliers and traders for needed goods and resources. Will hopefully the olympics will one day be held in a place where there is real equality and peace, but i doubt it, becaus eeventhou the United States is said to all rainbows and sun shines or equality and sportsmenship, behind closed doors and wawy from the light of the camera the truth dwells in the darkness yearing for the light.

Dissent is an integral part of Democracy

The article states something that is still a very raw and sensitive issue around the table and classrooms around the nation. Democracy the very bread and buttter of our nation is crunmbling very our very eyes and being made a parady of by the media in every outlet known to man. Withh shows like the Daily Show and Saturday Night Live on air and in constant rotation picking at and belitttling everything the givernment does, doesn't make for very productive citizens. Hell even CNN one of the only thought to be real news shows left on tv, has turned to the sad satire of picking at little known or unknown blunders that the government/officals/and the world might make. To get a laugh, chuckle, or fifteen more minutes of viewing time by their audiences. With by the way they assume are idoits are have some small strain of ADHD plays only to what make them laugh and keep them entertained long enought to improve their ratings, like broadcasting the news isn't enough anymore. Like our primetime television viewing should consist on what Bush messed up on earlier that day or week, and if we happen to miss anything there's aways "The Best WeeK Ever" on VH1 which will caught you up on all the lastest. In gossip, hair, cars, rellationships and politics, i guess the reason for this change is because we don't put enough empahasis on the American democratic system that our four father's worked so hard to earn for us. And because we don't use it i guess we're losing it now to Late Night Shows looking to gain more rates for the 18-28 age range.

Creative Loafting

Wow after reading all those awards i believe that the best prick won in every category. But my favorites where the The Secrets and Sludge Award and The Make 'Em Crawl Back Across the Border Award, they make a decent imprint in my mind. The Make'em crawl back across the border is ridiculous for him to try and rebel against the fourteenth amendment. A law made by our founding father's stating that all slaves where free under the constitution and where to be treated as equals. How dare he try and over rule tradition because He might not like the surplus of immigrants coming to America both legally and illegally. But to actually pull them over na d seize their car if they don't have ID or if their parents weren't born here is completely insane. If we really went by that then no one would be allowed to stay here but descendants of the Native Americas who belong here. He also stated that the chiildern of immigrants born here shoul not be allowed citizenship. What does he want really, a bunch of citizens to just come here from gods no where and be able to blend in to the mainstream culture and be good little lap dogs while he tries and ruins our society an culture. That had taken years and years of sweat blood and taers to bulid and improve upoon because none of us is perfect. Oh except for Rep. Bobby Reese, R-Sugar Hill, you know what he can burn in hell, cause he make sno sense once so ever. I don't see how he got elected to office, seriously peolpe we need to start doing background checks on all of our government officals because we don't know what their thinking or trying to do to our counrty and we're paying them to do it.

Tyler Perry

Tyler Perry is trying i believe to find a balance between what is funny and will sell and the issues taht plague his audiences. That he woulod be a better candiate at bringing to the light ,because in agree that he plays and talks about themes and situations already known and mentioned in other shows or books. He is just able to grab onto a largeer fan base and quickly than the rest. I beleive also what the article states that he beleives and wants ti kinda install in us that with GOD everything will be ok, and that without him you will struggle and go throught a many of meaningless trails. And that seems true for some but not all, but i don't think that it's a false truth or wrong in anyway. Just some people aren't ready fro that type of information right now, OnDemand is enough for now. And also that it would be nice if he could get on larger and more impeding subjects like black on black violence and self hate with in the community. But again he is only one man and can only do so much a day, eventhou the world may think he can do millions. But again with these new topics he would need more time and reseraches to make it funny to try and soften the blow of societies many hidden flaws. Their kinda funny like the elephant in the room at every gathering or event. But once you get amongst friends the lephant is quite visible and everyone is talking to him. But things and cahnge just takes time.

R.L. Burnside art?

Why should blue's be considered a form of art, because no one can copy it orfake the blues'. It has to be organic and come from within, you have to have gone through the blue's or a seriously troubling time in your life to have the creditals to sing the blues. That's way the few true blue's players that are left are treasured and sought for by true music lovers for their craft and experience. It's also a form of atr in how it teaches peopl not by the words per say but by the foundation it has laid for the rest of thr world's music to latch onto for support and further growth. The likes of Rythm and Blues , Hip Hop or what's left of it, along with jazz, rock and roll and bluegrass. With the shouting and yelling of some lyrics while still telling a story and trying to get the crowd invlved in what your singing about.
Because most songs made today should try and tell the listeners and audiences a story to get them entertained and interested in hearing the rest of the song or more like it. But nothing really compares to artist who can play their song acoutistic without all the high tech sounds and effects we have made over the years. It's like they are regessing back to the classical way music was and enjoyed. And it's simply done with the artist, their guitar and maybe their fellow band members if they have any. And just let it all hang out, and that's what R.L and Model T does when they perform bless their souls. They would bring it and have no prisoners after a show, no one would leave dissappionted. They would ahve all found some deep feeling of mirth, happiness, or completion, if not joy after the shows.

Gap VS Earth, Wind, and Fire

Who came up with this idea? I'm soo mad about all of it what were you on and or thinking about? But anyway i think that the GAP band might win over Earth, Wind and Fire. Not because they're younger or anything if they even are, it's because i see EWF as lovers not fighters. And they seem more hippish and kinda high in their songs and ballads. They are more of a happy go lucky band who just wants to be friends and love you till the sun goes down and comes back up again. While the GAP band seems more enegerized and amped like they wake up early in the morning ready to make a song or to get the day started. And they also seem more built and solid frames, EWF seem kinda slim and fragile because they are older than GAP. But some old men still have fire burning in their gut that has gotten them through wars and oppesions and then there's just plain out pride. That they just can allow them to let a youngster beat doen on them. It's kinda like your younger sibling saying they can beat you up and doing it. You would before that fight make sure that you do whatever it takes in your power to win this fight, because it menas alot to you. It goes into dominationation and Alpha male type scineros, where if you lose you will be submissive to the victory until you changlle them to a battle and win back your pride and dominance. But again i think the GAP band would win unless EWF just completely freak out and woop in on the GAP band. Like a store clerk on a robber who had failed to rob his store, or mom who caught her child stealing.

Voting for the first time.....it's so anticlimatic

I had to go all they way to Clayton County to vote in the election and it seem so important before hand. Like i had to schedule and make sure that after i got out of my last class of that day that i had packed my clothes and try to get home soon. I was both exicted and worried, i say to myself what if i mess up and vote for the wrong person and ruin the country for another four years. To tell you the truth i had no prep before i went in to the voting site i did not no real research and saw none odf the debates. I just kinda hoped for the best and went for it, i know horrible person bads citizen. But i just chanced it and went for it, cause either way you would think my vote would be basis. Because i'm both a woman and african american, i know what you're think Obama isn't balck his arbaian/muslism. But alot of people make that connection because he has a dark enough completion i'm sorry but that'a what i think. That peopl wonder off and group up into cluters that we can relate to.
So to end all of the suspense i voted for Obama for the reason that with any help he will improve the irregularity that our society has become. Hopefully he will improve the teaching methods of the schools instead of teching for the test they will be teching for college or for the pure fun or experience of knowledge. Then hopefully improve and speed up/ correct the immigrantion laws and citizenship. So that there won't be millions of illegal immigrants working for America while being America's qoute unqoute strain on society. They would be full flegde citizens and learn to comlain and be assholes like the rest of us "Americans".

See No Evil

The CIA to the government is it's ground or foot soliders to handle all of it's dirty business overseas. And they will do what it takes to get what they want, they thrive on cheating, lying, and stealing to get stuff done. They go as far as to take on completely fake identites so long that they actually start and believe them. Forgetting about their families at home and their old lives before the CIA. Like in the movie Bob's son seemed so distant and non chalant about his dad visiting. And was kinda questionable on why he was there to begin with, seeing as how he can easlily be away from home for years at a time. With no phone call or check in at all because he's undercover nad can not risk breaking cover for anyone. Because it has now become more than his life on the line it's become the countries well being and status. Beecause if for some reason he is caught and tortured he could disspell the secrerts of the nation to the kidnappers. So as a plan B or scaprgoat made by the governmebt they simply wipe him off the face of the planet destroying his birth certificate, SSV card and State ID of any form. The government saw it as it better if just you suffer or go down then the whole nation. We're sorry if this seems mean or hard but it's how we stayed on top for so long and alive. Like on of the lawyers or congress men said in th movie"lying, cheating, stealing is as American as Apple pie it's how they make money and survive. It's what's seperate them from the bums on the street it's their bread and butter."
The CIA seems like a shady, lonley job to enlist in, and ffrom the passage and the movie i don't think i would be joining anytime soon. I like my identy and my family and friends a little, then all the work you have to put in to lie everyday to people you don't know. The the pressure of if you get caught what will happen to you not just in the foreign country but when ever yo make it back home, what surprises what for you there.

Bathroom

When i was in grade school there was a little rhyme that my teacher taught me about the bathroom. And it goes " If you sprinkle when you tickle please be neat and wipe the seat" I got the glits of that rhyme at the tender age of 5 while is it that grown teenagers does seem t understand it? I mean i get and understand the santation issue but seriously people why just leave it there? When females decide to go to the bathroom they usually don't seat on the seat unless their are at home or a friend/ family member's home. They use it and leave the bathroom and sometimes they leave pee on the seat, and simply go to the sink to wash their hands and leave. So their pee is exposed to all the germs and bacteria of the public bathroom for the next unsuspecting lady to enter that stall. Everyones afriad of catching crabs from toliet seat do youknow how many people actually catch it that way? Less than 2% a year if that many, so tell me what do you think is in your urine, that is so good that it can just be left there to stand for hours on a toliet? And that's all types of wrong why would you do that to another human being, for anyone who has ever sat on pee in a public bathroom you understand. It is the most disgusting thing that can happen to you in your daily routine, it ruins your day. So what is so hard about after you use the bathroom after you pull your pants up, but before you open the door to syop and wipe your seat down. By you doing this you are helping yourself and the next lady who comes in to use it. And with any luck she will repeat what you did, and the bathroom might just be a better place to go and pee. And your also setting a great exsample for your younger siblings/childern to learn and adopt. So

Eng1102 Underconstruction

I really can't say what i would change about the class it's one of my favorite classes this semester. It's the only reason i get up in the morning by knowing in a couple of hours i get to go to Eng1102. Because the class is laid back, funny, and professional, all at the same time. Nothing is taboo in the class room and everybody is respectable and funny in their own ways. But Miller is the ring leader some how no matter what a classmate might have to say, being a smart ass or generally just wanting to know. He will always have a remark twice as fast and funny too without skipping a beat. And will continue with the class, i learnt about how bad my grammar is in my writings and how to cite soureces in MLA front. I know i know how did i make it this far in college without knowing how but i did somehow so get over it.
The class is exicting and engaging and most of all it doesn't baby us, it allows us to go out and figure things out for ourselves. We get to read and learn about things i might never read or have known about before this class. And finally its helped me to better organized my paper and agurments after reading the book and my first paper. But i do have some concerns and thoughts..... yea the surprise quizzes over movies and the reading asking werid questions. Like what was Bob's last name in Syrianna that was one of the most WTF moments i had in the class. And that there is no extra credit that i know of and i wish there were some just in case.

wet memories

I know we have parted and haven't talked since the break up but i can still her your voice in my head. And it doesn't make me cry or anger me, it makes me feel good to hear your voice so close to my ear. I can almost feel the heat of your breathe as you talk into my ear or neck. Either was fine because they would still gave the same result from me. I can almost relive our relationship when i sleep, but the way i wanted, i don't change much. The summer of 07 was the best to me because i had you all to myself and we couldn't get enough of eachother. While still trying to discover eachother, neither too quick to give our feeling nad interest to anybody easily. We do almost anything together and it wasn't boring in the least, we would skip school and go to your house and make breakfast. Then after eating would go and watch tv, play around the house, the finally go back to your room to sleep. And believe it or not that's exactly what we would do sleep together until one of your brothers would come asking for something. Distrubing ou little world of us just looking at eachother, messing with your, face, and you hitting my butt and i in turn hit your backs. And say see now you don't like that do you? You look at me and smile saying ohh do it again baby yea! I look at you then look away smiling and trying not to laughing saying i'm so mad. Yea our adventures in the car when i can never get any directions right and if you didn't know where you where going we would get lost. But i don't think we ever cared too much even the nights when we would agrue. When we would get a chance to make up and be together again it would more than worth the fight. The way you would hang your hang in shame and walk over smiling under your dropped head and then get real close to me then lick me. EWWWWWWWWWW you could away ruin a moment too.

Angel Eyes and the summer of 07

Angel Eyes by Beres Hammond is a reggae r&b song that my friend Tramanie hooked me on to. But not before my boyfriend had fell head first into the whole reggae, reggaton, and soca music subculture. So one day when we were having a fight or something or another and no one was really listening to anybody esle i had gotten upset about something and turned my head to leave. But he trapped me between the car and his body saying for me to look at him and i couldn't, then slowly emgering from the background was Angel Eyes. And like it or not this song brings back memories, some good and bad i kinda wanna cry alittle. Becausse i can almost relive the exact moment and that intense stare you gave me while this song played.I don't know why i was so wishy washy but this song makes me both very happy and kinda scared becuase with that stare i thought you could see through my soul and glance upon my demons. So i averted my eyes but you just picked up my chin and looked me in my eyes again and saw me broken alittle and crying. I felt so weak and stupid for letting my walls down in front of you but you teared up too and just kinda held me there. And i just placed my head in your chest and stared hoping to look through you and be with you that moment, that night and hipefully the next day. Yes this song takes me there, but now that we have parted does this song bring a bitter taste to my mouth. Not really it wasn't the song fault we didn't make it, it was yours. But thats besides the point the song is beautiful and evert time i hear it takes me back to our real good times together during our summer of passion, our summer 07.

Life after the b r e a k

It happened almost out of nowhere but i knoew it was coming so i wasn't completey caught off guard that doesn't mean in the least that it was easy. I get a text while trying to aviod doing my homework from him and i'm kinda exicted, because i hadn't heard from him in awhile. It stated that he would call me after he got off work and needed to talk to me. So i textedback a little worried and asked why and what i did, he stated back nothing he wanted to talk about us. My stomach tighten and i felt a little sick at that moment i texted back ok. I put my phone down and just looked at it for a minute, then i picked it back up and looked through all of my picture for one's of him and then the internet. Hours later after i had just gotten finish with my shower he called me, and asked what i was doing and how i was doing. For a quick momonent i felt a spark of hope maybe i had misunderstood his earlier message, thenhe said do you know why i wanted to talk to you? I said i guessed and then he proceeded to tell me that he wanted to break up becaus ehe felt as thought he wasn'y giving enough attention as i needed as his girlfriend and that he didn't want to come in between me meeting someone new in Atlanta. I wasn't happy in the relationship and that he needed to get his life together because he had just got his car towed and two tickets i said ok. We talked acouple of more minutes and then he hung up saying that he would see me around and i replied sarcasically yeah sure as i hung up.And i would just look the pictures not really saying anything then i moved from my desk to my bathroom and played in my hair, and thought back to why i had decide to dye my hair this color and have it this long. It was beause he had said he liked long hair and that they dye made me look more hispanic, and with that i turned on my iHome and turned to Danity Kane. And allowed Potery to fill the room as i combed and brushed my hair staright all around my face then i went to my dresser and took out my scissors and i started cutting it all away. It was time for me to start loving and liking me again, and this would be a start.

The evolution of boy

He went from saying that he loved my boobs to my smile, that my eyes could pierce and see right throught him. To his very soul and at times it intimadated him and he would push me away in fear of the unknown. But i was persistent and knew that i was right, so i let him have his space to organize his feelings. He went from laughing about some nasty joke he made about some girl to about something i did earlier that today. We went from going to the mall so that i can find an outfit. To him dropping me off at the entrance to walking with me throught the mall and waiting outside the dressing room. We have gone to eachother's house to eat with the parents, my anut has doubted his manhood by a glance at his shoes, and his mother has engaged me at first look. And we haven't run from eachother screaming of insanity and foul play. Danced the night away as friends and walked out as lovers, with a deep connection. But it doesn't stop there we have gone throught a very noisy and denmanding ex, who wants more attention than i believe she is entitle to. Held him when he cried about how he was hurting me by giving i to her and not being able to go to college with me. And now he has this idea that i'm cheating on him by me being so far away from home, and our fun filled adventures both in the day and night. But we have found an good medium he will come and see me on Friday or Saturday nights depending on his work shift to come and see me or spend the night. And i go back to home to spend time with him and our other friends, to go to the movies, resturants, and theme parks.Now he has gone from lusting for me to almost loving me and he still has room to grow because the evolution of man took billions of years, he has atleast a thousand left to go.

Feeling about self:chunky edition

I really like my boyfriend i mean when i see him my blood boils if that's even possible, but i do know that i feel. I guess i feel kinda warm around my face and my chest, added with the feelings of aniousness, exictement, and nervousness. I don't know how i am even six some old months into the relationship. He just has this werid kinda of hold over me i can go from ating him to my very core to not being able to contain myself around him. Or getting ready to see him for a date,chance encounter or an sleep over. I go from being giddy to distant in less than five minutes frm a simply misunderstanding, but who cares love is not composed and pretty all the time. If i can even call it love to begin with i mean i care about him alot and want to be around him in my spare time if i don't have to work or have any homework due. It's sad really all he has to do is smile or talk to me in Spanish and i'm complacent and content. Tequiero mi mami, I lose my words in my feelings and all i want to do sometimes is just be around and or near him, to have him lay in my lap as i play in his hair. Or for us to be lying i bed looking at eachther until i usually look away from the intensity. Usually on Sunday nights we would lay in my be and watch the FoodNetwork , until one of us turns the tv down or off to go to sleep. Then in the morning for me to get up and shower for class and get ready to leave i kiss him on the forehead and say good bye and i'll be back before he would wake up again. He smiles and mumbles some unknown and turns bak around in my black and gold comforter and goes back to sleep. A few minutes later while on my way to class i will get a text from him saying to have a good day and to try and not be too long coming back to him. The beds lonley and werid without me, i laugh and go to class thinking how stupid he is. And when these days come i'm in complete and total bliss until he has to go back home to Clayco. Because i know these good days don't come often enough and that the bad ones are due and coming on there way.

But its sad that we can only think of the bad things when we're together and the good when we're apart.

The Real College Life

When i was a child my parents would always tell me go to school and get good grades so you can go to college. Because unfortunately none of them got a chance to finish or even go to college,so they would hope that we all did good in school to go for them and us i guess.When i was in high school i was a gifted student and placed in AP classes i like the classes because they were small and i got to creat an real relationship with my teachers. I even went to Europe with one of them, Mr.Holmes he was my AP American History teacher. And college to me then was just getting out of high forever and i couldn't wait.So anyway once i started my seniorf year in high school this werid disease starting spreading all over campus, called Senioritis. It occured when a high school senior had been accepted into the college of their choice early and it was clear that they would graduate. The sympotoms included extreme tardiness to all classes, and strange disappearances around lunch time along with routine amounts of skipping wothout punishment if you were not caught. And i had it bad along with the rest of the AP Kids from my AP Physics classes, our attendance was better at the local IHOP nad Waffle House than in AP Literature.

Then college starts and my grandmother couldn't be happier and proud of me because really to tell you the truth i like and respect her more than my mom, she was never really there anyway. So i would work harder on my homework, quizzes and test just so that she could go around and tell all her friends how smart her granddaughter is. I also jioned the Soccer team, Newspaper,FBLA,TSA, and the Culture Club to ensure she would be proud. Because in a way i believe that she trying to live out her younger days through me, and i don't mind. So after GSU, I'm going into the Police force Atlanta PD to be exact.To in later years become a police detecive and work on homicides and other troubling investigative cases. But i really have to stop percuassionating and putting things off till the last minute, my GPA won't make if I don't get better.

But my reason for college is for both me and ny grandmother and i really hope that i can continue to make her proud.Because we both need alittle hope for the future.

criminal

What's makes someone an criminal or the scum of the community? What do you believe drove them to that point in their life where i presume they simply snapped. Well a criminal in the Criminal Justice understanding is an indiviual who has engaged and performed in many deviance and law breaking activies no matter how small. So do you know anybody who would fit this profile? You do you just might not know it just yet, sit back and think about for a minute. Has any of your friends shoplifted, ditched at a resturant when it was time to pay the check, or even snunk into a movie or theme park? Yea you can bring up a couple of names now can't you well all of the names that would fit this profile are all criminals. Eventhou we don't think must of it when our friend steals a sandwich from the cafeteria or a shirt from a store, by you not saying anything about to them or anyone else you are in engaging and aiding in your friend's criminal behavior. Now if he or she is caught and you are with them your going to the detention center with them, with aiding in a crime printed on your permanent record. Let that stink in by you being a good friend and not snitching on your friend or trying to stop them performing in the deviance you are as much in the wrong as they are, and you didn't even do anything i know. And you right because you didn't do anything is why you are an suspect in the investigation of the theif. But after all that is said and done you all are free right you can start off on a clean slate right,no. In our judical sysytem and community, eventhou you have served your time to the state your community stills feels the need to punishe you further. By having you state on any job application or credit card approval form whether or not you've served time in jail and what for. And from that information alone they could choose not to hire you no matter your education or creditals. Their reasoning being they don't want to hire a criminal to work for them stating that they can not trust them and they might turn aganist them and steal them blind. And that's just the beginning imagine how hard it's gonna be to get a car, apartment/house, or even another love intrest. This is one of the main reason some criminal catchg a case and in back up in jail, because their community no longer wants them back.

GlobalizedMusic from the globe

From all the music videos i saw from the links they all seem to share some common link that nomatter your problem or situation music can aid you in fixing it. And if not atleast forgetting about for awhile while you lose your self on th edance floor. Or into the eyes of a beautiful stranger with all the ascents to keep you more than complant for a period of time. Then how music can calm you down completly mind body ans soul, no matter what miht have happen the day before or a coulpe of minutes with Don Omar and Tego Chillin', it would be ok. And with Goldies videos it could just lose yourself in the rhythm and the beat.With Love me or Hate me from Lady Sovereign it just reaffirms that not everyones is going to like but it doesn't matter because you should know better than to care about theri opinons of you. Then there's Here comes the jude and Freddie's dead the music has turned from aiding in your emotional situation to telling a story about the day your had to the things you've done. But overall it's all musica nd it's all good except for the second goldie video where the little bald man was going around jumping on people and making them act out or perform angry actions i don't know i didn't get that video too much. But there is always an underlinig message in music with Goldie 1st video it was it was ok if you lived in the ghetto you could sstill have fun and be happy, same with chillin'. Becasue alot of people judge music and music videos from their face vaule and don't bother to look deeper than the jaded surface.

Canio vs bed

He just stands there so majestic leaning aganist the window pane, watching for snything important to take his mind off of the boredom that plagues his mind. He looks like such an complex dog with a stern and focused stare as if he stares long enough he could make something happen to kill his boredom. After ten minutes he gives up and walks back into the living room, to find something more to amuse himself with. He snifs the floor all around him seeing who had been in there before him, then looks up at the fire place. He prances around some more then he stops and stares at the couch and leans forward as if thinking about what he is about to do. Then he pull backs and jumps on to the sofa walking a small circle and then plopping on the side if the sofa. Then he takes in a breathe and sighs, looks around some more and then turns his head towards the tv. I had left it on animal planet earlier he doesn't like it. He gets more into FOX, the Foodnetwork, and Trutv i don't know why maybe because it has all those bright and fast colors. He bores of the tv and takes a nap on his side of the sofa, laid out with his legs wide open i don't know why he does taht either i guess to cool off or something. But he's barking nad his sleep and slowly but surely running, because his lags are twiching and moving. Then he jumps up as if someone threw a pillow at him. He looks around fast seeing if anyone was there and how had touched him. Finding no one he hops off the sofa and walks the hallway to my room, he pushes open the door and peers inside. He spots my bed and he walks along the side of it looking it up and down getting ready to jump again like in the living room. He leans back again and jumps for the bed, once he reached the side he can't catch his grip. And you just see him struggling trying his hardest to reach the top but he's making no progress. Soon after a few minutes he finally falls back to the floor. Hegets back up and stares at it in shock, and thenm starts barkling and growling at it. Mad he's pissed and feels shame that he didn't make it to the bed. I'm back in the den dying on the floor laughing, i should watch Canio again.

Tiffums thinks Mike...

I understand alomst completey if not more where Mike is coming from with not trying to let down his parents. Becasue therir is nothing worse then having them put so much faith and pride in you just to let themdown. Eventhou they might say it's ok you tried your best it's never really ok. Because i don't know about you all but my grandmother loves to brag about me to all her friends. When i made into the Beta society, to making editior of my school paper. Even when my soccer team made it to finals eventhou we lost she just took so much happiness in my accomplishments. So it made it even harder for me if i failed or didn't get great marks on my papers and finals grades. So tto keep her happy i would hide them from her and just show her or tell her about the good to keep her happy.

But back to mike i think that his way of writing is great he uses the personal to distant approach even if he doesn't know it. He gives you personal parts of his life what he wanted to do andd hoped to do then how he failed or succed. Saying his truth like it or not and what his future plans and choices could be. So he lets you into his mind and kinda without sounding girly it almost sounds like he's writing in his diary. Sorry mike but i still like your writing your doing a good job you just might want to profread your blogs before posting cause sometimes you forget to space out your words.

Need

You need what??! You think that you need her please what has she done for you lately but caused you an headache. What has she done or can do better than me huh? Tell me i'm dying to know what she comforts you when you've had a bad week, i do that too whenever you decide to call me. But i guess it's easier talking to her about everything so continue, but please don't mind the fact i i do the same thing but in person and i hold you while you vent. And if the situation calls for you makes you something to drink so eat but please continue. She needs you because she needs to vent and tell you things that she can't tell anyone else,excuse me but when did your EX boyfriend become your confidant. I understand to a certain degree somethings you just believe that he could help you in but EVERYDAY come on get off it stop lying to yourself and everyone else. You don't have one single girlfriend that you can talk aboput your troubles to it has to be him. But wait i believe there's more to this equation maybe he tells you that he wants to hear of your day and still wants to be involved in your life. Then the story seems to have a different spin that sick, greedy, self centered, insenstive bastard. WTF, i don't get it why do you still want to be that involve with your EX's new life. They're trying to move on so why aren't you what are you afraid of what is wrong with you? What could you possibly need that i can not or has not been giving you please tell me.It justs makes me feel inferior to her and i hate that more than anything, that even with me being there right infront of him he can't let the phone ring and go to voicemail, am i really not that important to you? I need to know becuase i feel like a fool being played second to a attention deprived highschooler.

Girlfriend effect: cold music

I care about you and want to be near you at all times if possible without be clingy and stalkerish. But there is a thing standing in between of me and my goal and that's your little obession. What makes her so much better that me? Do you think i like hearing you talk on the phone with her laughing and giggling like you the Pilsbury doughboy. I don't know what to do i am over all a very calm person and does not see the need to become loud and confrontal, but by me doing that i have become a bit twisted cynical. My insides hurt when i know she's on the phone my body weeps and feels cold, my mind is on a never ending spin of ideas and accusations. I'm starting to loose grip of my sanity day by day, at times i will admit i've wanted her dead. Cold to the touch dead or she could be warm right before ridgimismortic kicks in, and to tell the truth i would be sad at all. I would go to the funeral if i needed to and give my sorries for their loss and in that same ady go to the park or Six Flags. Because in the back of my mind there's a celebration going on of my insanity and everyone is invited. I can almost see how she dies there is a hill near her house and as she is walking home from school or "jogging" shetrips over a rock in the middle of the road. And that rocks knocks her balance over and her ankle goes into a crack in the road causinf her to twist her body in a very ungodly way, possibly breaking it and causing her to fall shoulder first on to the ground. She shocked for a minute but then starts to get up, she has on a Mp3 player and doesn't hear a sound besides that of her downloaded tunes. There's a late FedEx Ground delivery truck coming down the road, and the driver is panicking he can't be late again so he picks up speed as he rounds the bank and gets closer to the hill. She's rubbing her shoulder nad ankle as she's crying to herself aout the pain. When she notices the truck she starts to panic and get up as fast as she can to get out of the way of the FedEx truck that she never saw the minivan on the other side of the road, it hit head on and propelled her into the side of the FedEx truck and then to the ground, with an sickening splat. I will simply sit in my bouncy chair eating fruit chips and wonder what i will be doing for the rest of the day with my boyfriend. And if not that have her hurt his feelings so much that he curses her to heaven and back and never wants to speak to her again. If i could be on three way without them knowing now that would just be perfect.

Obession

Your obession with prison amuses me, the girl you flaw for is only 16. She doesn't want you and yet you still text in call her like a telemarketer. She leftr you saying that this just wasn't the right time for a relationship and that she wasn't ready. But she will still call and text as if she's still your girl getting mad at you for not calling her back, and questioning you of your whereabouts all the time. Gee all this attention from Just a Friend, she wants all the time like it's become her drug. You need to call her text her nad check in with her every other hour on the hour. But when questioned you say you do it because you really don't like letting people in and the one's that are in are your friends for life. But what about the girls, if you and your ex breaks up will you still continue calling her everyday and seeing how she doing? No there needs to be a time period in which you two just need to not talk to eachother. And just be with yourself and your new feelings about being free again, but if you still call and text. Those new feelings will never come anf you will be stuck in this horrible limbo you've put yourself into now. But you had a chocie and you decided to continue you the cycle i don't know becuase your bored. I get that once you love a person you just can't turn your emotions off, but can you care about them to yourself. Can you just chill out and reminecse about the good old days when you were together. Instead of this disgustion and tring limbo you have been floating in. Because how do you espect to move on when your still holding on, you may not see it but your girlfriend is dying right beside you. As you talk to your ex on the phone when you text your ex on the phone her mind is going through hell, slowly turning nad twisting untill she is no longer sane, and starts to plot her demise. And wondere why and cry you can still want and talkt to your ex when she is there and she wants you and always has.

Just a friend

Just a friend and nothing more, so go knocking at my door. I care not for your reasons why. I simply sigh and reply you phone corrupts our very being , by it conyinuing to keep on ringing. Your presense is no longer wanted or needed in my bed because the simply sight of you brings a pain within my head. You say that you've changed and i;ll admit it you have but she has not and that's why i plot. Her constant calling and texting asking why she's not allowed to talk to you like you would an beautiful creature of the street. You reply everytime not right now i'll call you back later ok, why? she's here. Yea i'm here with my girlfriend so in a hushed voice you reply i'll call you back later ok bye bye. What is this, how do you find comfort in a person who has done more harm then good and that if given the chance will lock you away for good. What is this power of sorts of corruption that has been embedded within your body. Why do you crave her more than me, when i'm the cutier of three. Your werid unknown decison making skills makes me wonder if i should wager a pound or two on the tradmill or the pool. I get dolled up in ribbions and lace try to look my best and save face, because inside i'm nervous and awaiting your approval when all i get is a look or nod in recoginition. My mind turns and sanity spills as a imagine her as a nimhp a cute little forest nimp wondering the forest before a huge oak falls and squashes it. But then i snap out of this demented day dream for i scene i seem to scheme i need a doctor minus the syrigne. There goes my self esteem for the day, but i will not let this continue i have a new intrest who has found a very instinct intrest in me. So have your traudry conversion at night with the additional phone melting text message, I'll stick with my new flesh intrest. I don't have to chrage him up but somehow he still goes for hours.

Spring Break Tiffums Style

Well to start off my Spring Break i miss my flight to Miami, because i had slept in at my dorm. I know how dense can you be to miss your flight? But somehow i got stuck watching Dexter and CSI:Las Vegas. But my friend's mom was able to get me a flight for the following day and my flight was great. I got a window seat and i had my iPod, which was fully charged, so i was rather pleased with myself. Once we touched down in Miami, the heat hit me like a thick hot wet towel to the face. I had to go in a bath and changed clothes, before we left the airport. Also a rather nice thing is that the airport didn't lose my luggae, that had to be the best flight i have ever taken. But anyway we got in the car and went to South Beach's open air mall I don't remember the name that well. And i found a new bathing suit and learnt of a new one called the monokini. Yeah well after our quick shopping trip we went to her house and then back to the beach for like maybe 25 minutes, because she was complaining about how hot the sand was and wanted to go home. So we left the beach and went back to her house where some hispanics were having a pool party nearby. So we crashed it and had a great time the whole time i thought we were going to ge caught. And later on in the week we went go-karting and played alot of arcade games along with DDR. Then the next day we went to Wet'n'Wild that was Friday, because on Saturday i had to go to work. That was like the only reason i came back at all, and if i could have called in i would have.When I got back my roomate had not changes=d a thing she just had extra dishes in the sink which is somrthing i had not missed at all.

Nation of the lost

I do not know exactly where I come from, I know my mom was from Atlanta and my dad I believe the same. I was raised in Decatur and Jonesboro subrubs where the cultures clash and blend. Until i became older and i was allowed to know more, about me as a people. From what my grandmother trold me i'm supposed part Cheerokee and African American. What tribe i'm not certain we could be from Nigeria or Ghana we couldn't find any creditable documents so it's anyone guess. Also frommy momo she's told me that we also could be a part Islander like Trabago or Barbados, again no real documentation so i can't really prove it. Soi'm a person built on uncertainties except for my Cherokke and African blood i believe that and their is actual documentation about that. And because also in the summer when i don't perm or put in chemicals ion my hair it curls not napps but actual curls. Andno matter what i try to do with a flat iron or curler it will noit starighten, so i just wear it wet and curly. Also the cheerokee part in part to the fact that iu am very lacotse in tolerate, but it sucks somuch because i loved milk. I love ice cream cheesecakeand yogurt why did i of all people have to be lactose. But i beleive only on my dad's side of the family because my mom candrink milk for days and feel nothing. On the other hand if me my brother cousin or grandmother try to be the same we will be in great pain like monthly cramps with gas it's horrible. Unless we drink soy milk or speckle that lactose powder over our ice cream and ect.
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Wait till i get my money right?

Kanye West is an innovative and breaking edge new artist who has given rap a new outlook. No longer with the songs entirely about how much money you, have how you get your money, and all the expensive things you can buy with it. Kanye's break out song through the wire descriped his experiences after he was invovled in a horrible car accident, that resulted in his mouth being wired shut. But still through the wire ,gause, and pain he still recorded the song and stayed on his mission to get out and known in the music industry. So many people respect and hold him to a certain standing. So when he comes out with a new song like "Can't tell me nothing" , it was thought to be another anthem for those trying to make something happen for themselves and theri family. With it's catchy bridge "Wait till I get my money right", the video itself was unrestricted and raw to a certain degree of it just being him and the music. Also some of the graphics were cool how with the bass beat of the bridge would make the screen shake. Thou there were parts of the video i did not get when he don on this bubble vest and wasa standing in front of the stage with lights and smoke starting to surrond him.But with the country farmer video of the song I was alittle dumb founded. I didn't get right off what this video had to do with the song.But once I had saw the whole thing I started to get it and how it MIGHT have related to the song. In the way that the farmer probaly does not like his job and is only doing it ,until he can make enough money to get out or live comfortably. It has a realistic eerie feel of truth behind it, but with all that said there was no need for the main farmer to be shirtless at the end. But my judgement is this I am indecidive both videos had a certain backing that made it relavent to the song.

Globalization and Tiffums

Globalization is the intergration of other economies and societies around the world. The way that globalization affects me in my everyday is because it affects my boyfriend. Don't jump to conclusions please he's not just using me for a green card or anything. He was actually one of my highschool friends back at Mt. Zion High, we played on the soccer team together. And took some of the same AP course along with belonging to the same club, we were both in TSA. He is a very smart indiviual he made the top ten percent at school and was invited to GHP for technology and won a few awards. He was never arrested or had any childern to may knowledge, but he's your above average everyday student. The only difference is that he was born in Mexico and we were born in America. It sucks ,I mean really it sucks so much a$$ that he allowed to go to public high school illegally, but when he wants to go to college he not allowed to apply for any scholarships. I f he wants to go to college he would ahve to pay up front for every course load, I know some people you all know may do that. But why when your smart enough to go through college for free. Because of Plyer vs. Doe he allowed to go to K-12, and i think that ,that's a trap to say the least. When your in high school what is one of the many things taht the teac hers and your parents embled i you. Get good grades and you can go to college, but not for him he can get excellent grades and he can get a job and save up to go to college. America the melting pot as it was, is nothing but a pot of lies and misconceptions, as the dominate cultures fear the new enrties. How can we be this melting pot if we are afraid of the ingredients that make us special. There are those out west who fear this event stating that thenew culture will simply take over the current one, leaving tham with nothing. Mexicification is one of the colorful terms used to describe a part of town where there is a large population of unassimulted Hispanic people. Unassimulated thats what scares them that they won't like what they like and they would buy the things they buy. That they will shop at their stores and buy from theri people. Which is bad also but, their reason is totally different. The reason they fear change is because some of them maybe illegal and wish not to take a cajnce and get caught. Feeling that they can only trust themselves they keep to themselves for protection and safety. But we can't live on in fear of on another something has to give, America is suppose to be this great place of opportunites and dreams open for anyone. But as long as you meet our rules and regulations, globalization has played a part in this also by promoting America as such. So when others in foreign countries hear how if they can make it to America they can proved a better life for their families they go for it. It doesn't matter what it might take, their families worth it and if it's too dangerous tpo bring their family along they simply send money back home. To help their family, and they think they're just fine. Besides we need them more than they need us, without illegal immigrants our economy woukd crumple and fall into a depression, one that would rival the dust bowl.

movie tiffy

If a studio were to make a movie about my life and would be called Realize me Please, it would probaly be done by director Joel Schumacher. For those of you who don't know Joel is the man who directed 23 the pyhco thriller starring Jim Carrey I don't know if alot of people saw it. I would like if I could play myself and if not a adventurous new actress, with spunk and plenty of sacasim. The setting of the movie would circle all around Georgia because as a child I did alot of county hopping. Then once I got older we went to the Carribean and saw a many islands and tourist traps. The movie would also hit spots like Flordia, Texas, California, and New York. Then once I became a senior for our senior trip we all went over sees to France, Rome, and Germany. The script would be done with the movie opening up towards the end of a scene and the a slow rewind to take us back through all the turns that got us to that situation. With twist and turns of betrayal and heartbreak, there will be navie teenagers,over worked and under sexed parents. Travel to avoid the troubles and mishaps of a particular area. And ofcourse the great relazation of all the wrongs done at the end, but nothing seems to get better only worse. Because know our character knows that what she is doing is wrong but sees no reason why to stop it. I f she doesn't get caught, little does she know that she is not one who may place judgement or critic on anyone. With this haunting question that plagues the latter chapters of the movie "Is it really cheating if you never get caught? And everyone is happy and or content?"

Caino

I have a dog his name is Caino Jack Davis-Dortch, he's balck and white a clasical mutt if I ever saw one. He is mainly white all over with black spots , but his ears are his claim to fame they are where most of his spots lie. And what all the strangers fuss over and just have to touch. He is a hybrid of Dalmation and Akita and he is a i don't know i can't sum all of him up into one word. So i will try and describe him in the following paragraph the best i can. He's very picky about the dogfood he eats but when he gets hungry enough he will eat just about anything you bring him. We have gone through atleast two different types of dog food over him. He has can and packet dog food, dry bag dog food and dog food conditments like gravy and ect like treats.He eats chicken, corn, cornbread, bacon, cherry tomatoes, laffy taffy, and ice cream, to name a few. He also almost has a dresser full of clothes that we have gotten him for the holidays and just because. He has a Halloween , Christmas, and the 4th of July he hates his Halloween costume because it has booties. And he will spend atleast 12 minutes if not more trying to get those booties off, walking around the house shaking his paws one by one trying to free himself. He also has clothes for the winter like sweaters and hoodies, he likes these clothes. Because he has made a connect with tyhe clothes and going for a ride in the car, the park, Pet Smart, or ect. Either way he gets out of the house for awhile and get sto show off. WEhen he gets into the car he is too happy then he loves to go for rides in the car so that he can stidck he haed out of the window and hang on to the side of the car. You know he fell out one time and scared the living hell out of me, I now know to lock the windows when he gets in the car. He has made another connection between a certain place on the right side of the car door and the window going down. Also when we have to leave him alone at the house to go out to eat or places that do not allow dogs, he has his own little adventurees in the house. One time when we had gotten bacj from the movies we found him by the window waiting anf inside the house all thge living room pillows on the floor and the refrigerator door open. Then he were to be upset at us we would find our blinds in pieces on the floor. Either by the gfact that he was left alone or if we had not left the blinds up far enough for him to look out them. We would then come in and ask him Caino did you do this? and he would run away to hide under the bed. His secert hideaway where he beleives no one can fiund or get him. But thats my dog and i love him more than anything else like a family member or a brither no one can take his place with me.

The Evolution of your birthday

When your a baby for your first birthday, you remember little if anything of that day. It's more a celebration for your parents of their new arrival. As a matter of fact most of the one year birthday parties i have attended were more for the parents then the childerns. Well maybe the early parts of the party like the a.m. parts till around I say like 6 or 5 p.m., is when the grown up tends to put all the childern to sleep or send them outside to play. Then it just turns into another gathering/ get to together they turn on their music and go out and get alcohol and ect. for their party. And then once you get alittle older and are able to recognize what is going on around you, your parents tends to give you themed parties. Like that of Barbie and Sponge Bob with the character displayed all over the house, on the cake, and any party decorations in sight. Also they start inviting other childern your age in or in that age range to come over to the house to help aid in your party. This kinda gets you into the mind frame of having parties with peolpe there to help you celbrate your big day. Your parents take pictures, record it wioth their camcorder, and make little goodie bags for you guests. Hoping that they have a good time and to come back again real soon. Then you start to head towards your pre-teen or young adult stage when you want to branch off more from your parents and start to try and plan your own party. You may or may not still want to maintian the theme trtadition of your birthday. And your parents appearance starts to become more scare, if they're even there. Your parties change from small gatherings of a bunch of little children to large celebrations with music, food, and maybe even live entertainment. Like that of house,slumber,dinner, and surprise parties, that may flood your child/young adulthood. So we have made a progression of sorts from your almost nono-existence first birthday party to more detailed and elaborate 16 and 18th birthday parties that you may never forget. Or you could end up being a busy body like me with a combination birthday , we go to the movies forst as a group, then later on that night we go out to eat, and finallt later on we go to a club and IHOP after to end the night off right. I don't really know why club goers love Waffle House and IHOP so much.

Fall Out Boy: Infinity on High

Radio has a it's place and outlet in the media and our lives. Thou I don't it will ever be as great as it was in the Roaring twenties, but it is heard everyday more than some mothers hear from their childern. And the radio is everywhere, it is almost mandortory for car companies to install them in their cars. So there's music everywhere for everybody, but I choose at times to steer away from the mainstream its dulled to me. So instead I choose to listen to band music or live music, like one of my favorite cd Infinity on High by Fall Out Boy. Their cd starts out with the song 1.)Thriller featuring Jay-Z, which is a dedication to their fans and those who don't like what that they have become some what mainstream. Saying that it's not their fault or their choice that some scene childern love and adore them. That doesn't mean thou that they have changed, but with all the fans and crowds they win and lose. They will keep writing, sing, and performaning for their die hard fans. 2.)The takes over,the breaks over, speaks out to theri old fans who have dubbed the sell ots and Sell out boy. Saying that they can't act like they were never theri favorite band at one time. And that no matter what they do or say the media will always cut it up and disset it until it means nothing anymore to anybody. Like it or not people change like the season and so do their music, so just let it go. 3.)This ain't an scene, It's an arms race, states how there some indiviuals and circumstances that happen in peoples lives that just get blown out fo proportion, i.e the Pete Wentz photos. 4.)I'm like an Lawyer with the way I'm always trying to get you off(me & you), is just a song getting at the boys being famous does nothing for theri relationships. They have fame, fortune, but noth theri happliy ever after yet so two out of three ain't that bad. 5.)Hum Halleluujah, is a by chance love affair or attaraction you might have with someone you meet in a club or a resturant. And as your leaving you say all these nice things to eachother to never call one another again if ever. 6.) Golden ,takes a look at how the world loves you when your a celebrity but their not in love with you. 7.)Thnks fr th Mrms, the last time you might have with an ex or old flame, recalling on all the good and bad times. 8.)Don't you know who I think I am? Is your classic kiss off, to those who think the band should quit while theri ahead. 9.)The (After) life of the party, comments on how you can be so close to really accomplishing some big or important. When you caught a snag from your past that slows you down, so its time to cut that thung or person loose. 10.)The Carpal tunnel of love, is a reflective look on how you've grown, and how at times you might miss your old self. But you just have to tough it out and make it through another day. But you will always have thoes ice cream headaches to look back on. 11.)Bring the Doldrums, saying to all the ex fans that its ok, and that they forgive you. And that its easier to make up with an ex friend or fan than a lover. 11.) FameInfamy, to just stay to what your good at and not to become too cocky with whatever talents you may have. 12.) Your crashing but your no wave, how sometimes are world is corrupt and catch in their own stubborn ways. 13.)I 've got all this ringing in my ears but none on my fingers,the truth is in the end fall out boy is a good band, and that they have been for a long time. So no amount of hate mail can deter that and besides the best payback is another reward for best band of the year. Or thanking in them in one of your speechs, than I think it's real cute that at the end of this song they say "now press repeat". But all in all I really enjoyed this cd i had to listen to it a couple of times to get the meaning. It wasn't a bad experience so i coukd care less if i had to listen to it a dozen times. Just not all in a row, back to back, because even the best things lose there touch if their played out and soon they die.

Movie Killer

Who decides what's right or improper in what you do everyday? Why is it that your allowed to yell at football games but not in the library? Why is it that in the movie theatre there are at least five ad's leading up to the movie stating that Silence is golden. Which means no talking during the movie and by you not doing that it makes your movie experience that much better. So why are there still people who defy this simlpe advisement for their viewing pleasure. Tell me what's so hard about being quite for an average of maye an hour and thrity minutes. The audience does not want to haer you critea of the movie while their watching it with you. Also if your phone decides to ring please be a decent and sane human being and get up and out of the theatre and answer it. We don't need to hear you lame staticity ringtone from the back of the theatre, and you actually have the audicty to answer ther and loudly. Then get offened when other peolpe in the auidence tells you to be quite, which for some reason makes you ven louder and you start attcking the audience. Why? Are they just being ass holes, or is it a more deeper reason. Are they maybe attention craved or just mad at the world and the content people in it. It's as if they're just stuck on stupid or something, i could careless just shut up. And the next time you decide to come to the movies and want to hold an conbversation during the middle of the movie i will make it my life's quest to get put out of every and any movie theatre in the area. So that your movie ruing spree will finally come to and end, it's been going on for too long.

Winter Time

Winter weather is upon us, and most of us just add extra layers of clothes onto our outfits. And time how long we will have to be outside, because the cold is slowly eating away at the feeling in our fingers and faces. Lucky for us thou we have dorms, apartments, cars, and friends who will let us stay the night. Where it's nice and warm, but unfortunately for alot of people in the greater Atlanta area who are homeless. They have no choice but to try and find quite place to sleep for the night. Where the wind won't be as hasrh on their bones, which are usually empty stairwells and alley ways of the such. But there are people who own stores and that will allow them to sit in their heated store until they close. As long as they don 't distrub their customers and depending on the store owner they might even give them a couple of dollars to clean around the store. There are also homeless shelters which opens around 5pm and closes in between 7 and or 8pm i'm not sure. They feed them and give them a place to sleep i'm not too sure if they have showers or no, i don't see why not but that's besides the point. As for how we treat the mentally ill and veterans in Atlanta, if they don't have someone to keep them or pay for them to stay somewhere, i'm afarid they're pretty much on their own. No companies will hire them once it has been proved that they are mentally ill or incapable of work. And if they are a danger to themselves and others what can we do with them. It's a very frustrating situation, and it just jerks at your hearts strings and makes you feel bad about their situation. It makes you feel like you don't want that to ever be you one day. You don't ever want to fall so far from grace that you are thought of and seen as a parasite on society. A virus of sorts unable to live and or substain itself with out a host, willing or unwilling. But none of this changes the fact tthat before they got put on the street, before they lost their sanity. And before they got fired, almost died, lost their house in Katrinia. Or is just really hungry and needs a dollar or whatever change you might have on you. One second before you turn away lie and say you don't and judge them, know that their people too.

.........Snow

Everyone at Georgia State the other day was very busy going to class, eating around, and laying around their dorms. When all of a sudden all the harsh when we had and cold weather finally gave us something wondeful. It snowed and hard it seemed as thou the whole campus came to a halt. And phones went off along with opening and closing of doors and elevators, as this epic event spread liike wild fire. And every 18, 19, and 20 year old was outside staring uop into the sky in pure amazment and joy. It's as if you could see their child like memories play right before their eyes. As they just walked around ,stuck their tounges to catch snow flakes, and continued to call more friends and family to inform them of this moment. Its just because everyone loves snow and if not love they have some strong emotion or feeling concerning it. And when they are around it sometimes they can't help it and just let themselves revert back to those good times and funny memories of the snow and what it brings. I saw the very best and human part of GSU, because maybe its just me but in my day to day run ins with strangers at GSU. Have been as if I was invisible as if they wouldn't dream or even bring themselves to touch me. But on that afternoon with the snow there were hugs and random conversations along with just maybe a bit of child hood innocent in the snow. People were sliding down the hill on trash can lids, pizza bixes, cookie sheets, trash bags and whatever they could get their hands on. There were snow ball fights , writing i the snow, snow angels, and people built mini snowman. And on that coldest day of the week GSU didn't seem that cold, as me and my snowman took pictures and watched as the snow continued to fall. Covering the harsh skyliness and road signs of Atlanta and momentarly slowing the city down. Bringing them to a daydream state as they wait for traffic to led up and drif back to their fun times in snow. You know between the curses of stupid drivers nad why they hadn't gone home sooner.

Clayco is where the ducks are.

I grew up in Decatur, GA from the age of 3 to 14, Avondale Estates to be exact. Until that faithful day in September of 2005 when me and my family spilt apart and I ended up in Clayton county. Jonesboro was my new domain now and it was boring now, because everything is so far away. In Decatur I could walk to where ever I wanted or needed to go, and if not there was a bus system MARTA that could take me there. But in Jonesboro they don't have that either you had a car or you walked to get where you needed to go. It sucked so much, because I was trapped in our new house until I make friends with cars. But once I had made some Jonesboro and all of Clayton was great, and they had parks. In Decatur we had parks to but they where nothing like these. They had lakes, waterparks, rowboats, swings, and ducks. I love ducks but they also had geese were evil they would hiss at us. And one time my friend Mathab had pissed one of they off and I could have sworn that they went to the other end of the lake and planned an attack on us. Because a couple of minutes later they would come in packs and start to circle the pier that we were on and would just sit there looking at us floating, while the rest where on the land waiting for us to move. Never throw a half eaten burrtio at a pack of geese, they do not like that. But the advantages of living there were the cool parks and plazas all over the different countries. Along with both of our football and soccer teams we had , go bulldogs. But the disadvantages would be that back then they didn't have a bus systems and everything was atleast a half mile away. Now they do have a bus system thou it's called C-Tran, but we'll see how long that lasts.

There's too much room for error.

Final Destination is one of my favorite movies and the one that has left the most impact. I know it's werid that I choose this movie but so am I. The movie tells how they beleived death had a plan made out for everyone, and that you could not escape that plan. And it made me think and look more closly at everything that i did. And that maybe everything isn't spontaneous as we liked to beleive. Like how many of people who have tries to kill themselves failed, and some have had affiany of sorts and given their life a new chance and look. I'm not saying that anyone who has seen this movie has tried to committe sucide and failed. Saw the light and the error of their ways and turned over a new leaf. No what I'm saying is that this movie gave me a thought that I had been stressing too much about trivial things in my life. Like i was 13 worrying about if my family woulf have enough money to take care of themselves once i was gone. I was a pre-teen daydreaming about my demise, so with this film it helped me to acknowledge something. That which each passing day that i wasted worrying about years and years to come I forgot about today. And that I shouldn't worry about when my time was to come because their were more important things to worry about and do. Because if we stayed in a constant fear of something or someone is coming after us, what kind of life is that? We should just take life a couple hours at a time and get on with our day.

The Media is informative, right?

The media has many outlets for information, newspapers,television, radio, and the internet. Now one would think with these various sources of information the masses should be well informed and worldly in their day to day activites and conversations. But now the media has sold out and is content with flooded our newsbroadcasts with glamourous, fantanstic,insufficent, shallow, and unworthy crap about celebrities. Instead of things that could be deem more news worthy like the riots and invisble childern of Africa. They fill my primetime tv with New York newest boyfriend and how Jessica Alba is now pregnat, instead of hearing about whether or not the DREAM Act has been passed or not. My little cousins know more about the latest Britney incident than they do about their own school. And that's sad I mean heck even Fall Out Boy has seen how far our media efficency has declined that they have started putting worldy events and problems into their videoes. In their latest video "I'm Like an Lawyer How I'm always trying to get your off", you can simply Google or Youtube it. What does the media beleive that we're stupid,fragile, and too innocent to handle the real world outside of OC and Glamtown, USA. I am hurt by this and feel shame over it, why do we have so many shows about celebrites and their lives.? Why do we need to watch them day in and day out ? Are they that important that we can take time out of our busy lives and stop to watch their "real" lives at 9:00P.M. Eastern time. All the shows are simply reruns of eachother anyway from Eyecandy off of Vh1 to TMZ , they all show the same thing. Stars messing up or getting in trouble, what's so cool about that? They're just people who have large amounts of money yes, but people none the less. I think America and the media has lost sight of that or has put too much pressure on them to be so much more than human that they couldn't stand seeing them being anything else. I care less, the more important thing is that our generations are getting dumber and dumber , they care less about voting and graduating and more so Preze Hilton's newest rant and Souljia Boy's new video ad dance. All because the media is afraid to air the real news afraid of what type of Armageton that might ignite. Psst, well I don't care the media is suppose to be informative, so why isn't it?